I lasted 8 days...

I officially lack self-control. After deciding a little over a week ago to spend one month behaving myself I have managed to screw up completely. I was more trashed last night than I have ever been..except that one time in Cambodia, and perhaps more than that one time.
Last night my flat held a cocktail party and I drank to ridiculous excess. I threw up a little..I never throw up. I remember most of the night..but apparently not all. I don't think I made out with anyone though so that's a good thing.

I feel ill. I feel cheap. I feel very, very dissapointed in myself.

Really, how could I do this to myself? I cannot believe I only lasted about 8 days.

I drank on Saturday too, not so much but enough that I made a fool of myself by acting like a tart to screw with the mind of Sig. Why do I care anyway? Sigs a dickhead, why am I wasting my time.
Have I mentioned Sig has another girlfriend? Some girl from Tassie who suits him to a Tee. Only she's actually quite nice. Problem is that my first impression was that she was a skanky whore so I thought I dance a little dirty with her when Sig was watching. Now she thinks I'm into her. I do like flirting with her though because it feels safe. So that was my tart-like behaviour on sat. I also acted a little like a tart last night too. I have some photos on my camera that look like I'm ready to make out with her. Her head is on Sig's lap, my hands are under her head..so on Sigs lap. I did manage to move my hands so as NOT to have them placed on Sigs genitalia.

Back to Sig being a dickhead. He breaks up with his girlfriend, after abusing her for months behind her back - making her out to be a "psycho bitch". He tells people she's got mental problems (she has chronic fatigue syndrome). While he is still dating her he tells people he is "technically single" and persues mltiple girls who reject him because they have some self-respect. He kisses me, then produces another girlfriend (within the week) who is apparently moving out here. What an absolute wanker! Oh..and apparently he told one of my friends I was his girlfriend (vomit) and last night he said to me that "apparently you can't resist me" (up chuck reflex).

Well "Fuck you Sig!" I may have issues resisting alcohol and your skinny one-eyed girlfriend, but I think you're a revolting excuse for a maggot and that aint hard to resist.

(Damn..I accidently posted this on the blog people who know me see..like sig, I've removed it now *whew*)